Tomorrow

Ahh, Wednesday the third of November...starts a a different road; one familiar to me, and my family but different still. more time to devote to being a wife and a mother, my true calling in my opinion. THank you Lord for the many talents you have blessed me with, but the most challanging tasks for me are the ones that I was made for, wifing and mothering....yes, wifing is a new word as of now.

Yawn

Not enough sleep these days...as I get older, I realize my body doesn't bounce back as quickly as is used too. But there is someones elses body who hurts worse than mine and he's 15! Thats right Paxton did some days in a row of extreme tubing, cliff jumping and rock climbing, now he can barley move, but he had tons of fun!

As soon as I figure out how to load the pics to the computer I will share some birthday pics! Happy 15th Birthday Pac-Sun, Pac-man, Packy-wacky...you are loved!

Little Fisherman

Oh, the thought that crosses my mind as I look into this pic of my little one holding proudly his first catch; am I teaching him in a way that he will be that thrilled to be a fisher of men! I hope so.

My current sin trap...worry

Worrying... its like a rocking chair, your busy moving but dont go anywhere. My brain will not let me not think on school next year for Savannah and Phoenix.
"Mel, we have prayed about this many times, asked for wisdom, and I thought we decided?" said the certain husband. I dont know that he is certain of the decision to move Van, but when he says we have prayed over this, he is accurate. So why the absence of peace? Let's not forget, we rob ourselves of the peace that prayer with our Father brings...entertaining the thoughts of "what if."
thankful that my Father loves my kids even more than I do, and His plans are perfect for them.

The Journey

Just for fun I am trying to "name" this season of life we are coming out of...ummm...a constipated alien on a roller coaster!!!! let me elaborate...being constipated feels awful, being a person in a foreign land could bring confusion, and a roller coaster, well that's kind a self explanatory... ups and downs twists and turns, all while having a pound of poop in your tummy.
This is the best way to describe what this time in my life has physically and emotionally felt like.

Pain. I have talked to some people about the pain in there lives and they all come to the same conclusion, they didn't want to experience the pain. I don't think anyone wants it, but we can get to a place where we know it produces something good in us that otherwise would not occur. More so God desires to teach, grow and change his children, just as we desire the same for our little ones. Pain is different for each person, each family...the death of a child, spouse, parent, friend...divorce, past regrets, the betrayal of others, financial ruin...the list goes on and on, and each circumstance that causes us pain really effects us, but we do have a choice as to HOW it effects us!

My pain in this season has been due to a broken relationship...my marriage relationship. the Lord is gracious in giving me glimpses of hope for our future so that I can withstand the pressure of it now. We are working on building our friendship; really trying different ways to reconnect. I have learned how to forgive, and how not forgiving wrecks the soul.

On my knees, crying to the Lord, "is this what you want for me?...this is it?" It fell very quite, I stopped to listen for His voice, and he said, " I like you and Scott together, it pleases me, I want this marriage to be. Hearing that was enough for me, and it changed the way I thought about my marriage to Scott, and I knew I could wait on the Lord and He would be faithful to restore; he has plans for me and Scott that only work if we are together, and I feel like we will know more about those plans in the near future.

up late? yea, but why?

little bear is next to me snoring...so one would think that would be of some encouragemnet for my mind and body to rest like him... nope.

Why can't he stay in his own bed any way?